July / August 2011 – Wonderful News that Crushes You

Wow – so in this virtual, social networking world we live in. I find out that my older brother and his girlfriend are expecting. What a complete shock this is to me. I am conservative. I am old fashioned and I hold strong values and morals. No shame on me. This is who I am and what I believe. So, I am completely in shock because they are not married and now pregnant? Finding out by facebook is also a shock, what great news, but through a website? Come on. My brother is not close to anyone at all, which is probably why he didn’t just call or email even. I’m not sure he knows how to handle the situation. I’m happy for them, however, I have a bit of jealousy. Trying for 4 years and not being able to have a baby and now I hear this. Its harsh and cruel it seems. I pray a lot about this. I can’t be this way. I need to be happy for them. And accept that this is what God has planned. It was not me to have the first child on our side of the family. It takes awhile, but I settle into the face that this is what is meant to be. I need to stay strong, be healthy and be ready to have my own baby, which means little stress.

August 2012 - Meet Dr. B

I’ve been waiting for this day. To meet my new doctor! Matt and I hear to Rookwood Commons to one of the IRH offices. I’m not sure what to expect, it is supposed to be our first consultation. We get to the office and it is very nice and relaxing. When we get back, they take my vitals and blood. I feel that the nurses are so friendly. More so than any I have other had experience with in any office. I suppose this is because of the nature of their practice. They are helping people make dreams come true. What a very special place. I hate needles and taking blood used to make me pass out. The nurse tells me this is something I’d better get used to (in a friendly and caring way) because they do that A LOT here. LOL.

About Dr. B

As we meet Dr. B, he is super causal and takes us into an office. He has my entire history in front of him. He has done his research from what I’ve been through so far. At this point, he is concerned with Matt’s morphology (sperm quality) and the darn fibroid. He very seriously tells me that if they were to proceed with any fertility treatments, such as IUI and IVF, if I were to get pregnant the fibroid would grow and impact the baby and me – putting us both in danger. He wants to do a saline ultrasound to get some exact measurements of the situation and from that point we’ll make a decision on what needs to happen next. He sketches what this looks like and how it will impact me. This really helps because I really have no idea. He does say that this may be causing heavy and prolonged periods. I’ve never had a short period, so I’ve always thought my were normal, but that may not be the case. He gives Matt a bunch of vitamins to start taking that will help with his side of the puzzle. I’m to call the office with the start of my next period and then we’ll schedule the SIS. While I’m not looking forward to this procedure, it is a step in the right direction and we are making progress.

We leave and we both are in agreement that we like this doctor and feel that he is going to be the one to help us get through this and onto our baby! We’re excited to get started and for once, I’m hoping my period comes early (not going to happen) so that we can get this SIS scheduled.

June - After 3 Months....So Long Dr. F

It has been an incredible summer! We celebrated Carol’s 80^th birthday (kind of Spring) and all the family came in. Except Chris. It was a great time. We then did our annual Florida trip over the 4^th of July. This year we did a small family trip and headed to St.George Island. It was our little family of Matt, Aspen and I and we took Ethan, Casey and Michael. It was a great time. Very relaxing and we fell in love with St.Geroge.

I’m ready to see what our next steps are for our baby. Its been one disappointing month after another. I head to Dr.Flemming’s Milford office for our next steps. Matt is not able to go with me, which I hate, but oh well. I’m super nervous, because I really don’t know what is going to happen next or what we are going to do. So far, I really thought that these procedures would resolve our issue. The nurse who takes my blood pressure and vitals is super sweet. She tells me ‘good luck’ before I go in the exam room. Dr.Flemming comes in and does a quick exam. Everything is where it should be. He then basically tells me that this is the end of the line with him. I’m devastated. Really. I was not expecting this and boy, my emotions were haywire. He then talks about my fibroid. While its there, he is unable to confirm if it is causing an issue or not. He tells me that it may need to be removed. It is serious, but I need to move on to a fertility specialist. I’m a mess. He wishes me well and gives me a hug. I think this is great. I really want this and don’t want another road block. After I calm down, get my self together and come out, he gives me a card to the Institute of Reproductive Health.

Immediately after I climb into my escalade, I call IRH. I remember not being able to get through right away, so I keep calling. Finally I get to leave a message. I explain my situation and hope that they can get me in right away. I’m not sure how difficult it is to get into a fertility clinic, but I need in NOW. Time is ticking by.

A few hours later, I do get a call back and they have an opening later that week. Perfect, I will take it. This is great. They will send me the paper work and we are on our way. My doctor will be Thomas Burwinkel. I remember thinking that is such a funny name, but it felt that he was supposed to be my new doctor. I’m nervous and excited for this next step in our journey. 

My New Doctor's Office